Sunday, September 28, 2008

Courage and fear


I have more ideas than courage. I have an idea for a calligraphy project but I've spent hours today procrastinating – doing laundry, playing solitaire and even making bread! Ha! (I haven’t made bread in years.) When I am at work, I long for more art-making time. When I have the time, I have to face my art-fears, and often I while my time away unconstructively.

Eckhardt Tolle says behind a negative self concept is a desire to be superior. Perhaps my desire for “perfect” calligraphy keeps me from starting… if I can’t do it absolutely beautifully, then I won’t do it at all. Of course the irony is I’ll never get better unless I work at it and accept muddles. As E. T. would say, I need to allow the dimishment of my calligraphy ego!

The pictured project is a hoot – black marker outline with acrylic paint on a medium-weight cotton. I taped the fabric to the wall and swirled away. It is a permanent addition to my kitchen counter, and I paint sections as time allows (while drinking red wine, cooking dinner and watching the news with Jim Lehrer.) Am running out of color ideas, though. Eventually I plan to machine quilt amongst the swirls.
Back to my calligraphy :-)